Yes, I definitely do. The truth is, writing is my immediate response to trauma—on the evening of September 11, 2001, I was unable to sleep until I'd written about my experience that day in downtown Manhattan. Writing offers me a process I can control in the midst of some great force majeure which I cannot.

I had a similar issue when my paternal grandmother died. She was a very difficult person to like: ungenerous, judgmental, a holder of grudges. My brother and I represented the family at the funeral, which was held across the country from our home. I acted less admirably than you in that situation, however: I simply didn't say anything.

I'm not sure if you read Solomon on my page or at Plotz, but if the former please consider checking out the latter at https://medium.com/plotz. It's been dormant for a couple of years (I've found it very hard to write humor since November 2016) but you might enjoy some of the material that's there.